I’ve been somewhat afraid to write this post for some time because I know that I am going to share a lot of personal things, but I figure that there is nothing wrong with being troubled or not knowing it all.
So here goes:
There is a significance to this photo of me. I had a makeup lesson and wanted to capture what I learned. Yay for learning new things.
For a very long time, I’ve felt unhappy with where I was going as far as a career, as well as overall, for myself. Like, what am I really meant to do? What is my purpose? There are a bunch of things to actually be happy about though, such as getting married, getting a brand new car and slowly creating a home for my husband and myself. Besides that though, there was the career I could totally be proud of and feel totally fulfilled. And I was constantly trying to figure that out, ever since I went into college. I had developed an interest for technology and computers, and even dabbled in web design. I embraced web design for a long time, but slowly became intimidated by the even more talented web designers. So I stopped learning, and became too far behind. I then got a job in internet marketing and found it really interesting. I worked for almost 3 years with a company I could see myself grow as an individual and an internet marketer… at least that’s what I thought at first.
I had found myself feeling uninspired, and the creativity I embraced with side projects of creating logos for my blogs and creating invitations slowly went to the wayside. I would come home tired, cranky, and low from the constant, ‘you’re doing it wrong,’ or constant feeling of not being trusted with recommendations I had made at work. I mean, there is just so much a person can handle until they feel like they really believe that maybe they do suck at their job. I honestly did not want to believe that, because I knew I wasn’t dumb. I knew that I needed to do something about it. Something needed to change. I was tired of crying in the car going home, and even in the bathroom at work. I was tired of ranting to my friends and arguing with my husband about it.
I decided to quit my job and make a living on my own. For some people, it may have been a dumb move, considering many people are struggling with finding a job, and here I am, wanting to quit mine. On the other hand, there are many people who do make a living on their own through self employed businesses. With the support of my husband and family, and not to forget my friends on Twitter, I know that this is something I can do. To be able to get that creative spark back, and do things on my own terms, will not only make me feel good, but sharing that with others is even a bigger benefit.
So with that said, this blog is going to evolve. Three main things that I hold true to my heart – health, fitness and happiness is what I will be sharing with all of you. We all go through hardships, failure and realizations in health/fitness/finding happiness. Although each of our paths are different, we can relate to each other somehow. The posts before this one will be around to read in the archives, but I am truly starting a new from here on out. I hope we can share experiences together and definitely learn from each other. 
My name is Susan. When you think 'fitness' you think exercise and sweating. But there is more to life than that. Eating mindfully and being happy is also important. That is what this blog is all about. 
